When I ask Em if he is a Big Boy or a Baby, he usually replies--"No Mama. I Emmett." However, if he is in the stroller and wants to walk, he says, "Walk Mama. I Big Boy." But, if he is lying in bed at night and he wants me to snuggle him, he says, "Emmett. Baby."
Today was my baby boy's
birthday. He isn't a baby anymore. He is a
big boy. Even though he tries to convince us both that he is still my baby, we both know he is growing up.
Two years ago the best gift ever came on Mother's Day. When he was born, it was so completely different than
Augi's birth. I got to snuggle him for an hour after birth, before they took him away to be cleaned up. I swore I wouldn't let them take him from my room even though so many people told me to send him to the nursery and use the time to rest. But that first night, I had him in the bassinet next to me and I couldn't sleep a wink. He was so noisy! He kept making little humming and cooing sounds as he slept. So, I actually rang the nurse and asked her to take him to the nursery. She said she would come right in, but she never did. Every single night since then, he has slept next to me. He is in his big boy bed now and we are working on it. I still wake up every morning next to him, though. When I am completely tired from playing musical beds all night, I try to remind myself that this time really is short. It won't be long before he is having his 4th birthday. Then his 10th. Then his 20th. He doesn't coo in his sleep like he did when he was newborn. It won't be long before he learns to say his "L"'s and I don't hear, "i
wuv ooo mama." Eventually he will stop walking around the house calling out, "
weebee...where are
yooooo?" as he looks for his favorite
blankie. He might stop belly-laughing every time someone says fart, poop, or butt (maybe). He won't always run up to me and give me spontaneous big hugs. Someday that won't be cool, I'm sure. He has already stopped putting the corner of his
weebee in his ear as he falls asleep. He will stop insisting that he is my baby, but I won't.
Here he is.
My Big Boy.
This birthday has made me feel very homesick. I miss having Em's family and friends around to celebrate his day with them. When we
Skyped with Sarah and the gang tonight, Em kept running around grabbing his stuff to show them. Who knows how long we will be here? The familiarity of home and family is nice.
We tried our best to make his birthday special. On Saturday, I couldn't stand the suspense any more so we gave him his present early. He loves
Knights and Dragons, and he has spent hours playing with his new
playmobil dragon castle. On Sunday, we reserved the park on base and rented a bouncy castle. We had pizza and cupcakes. The weather looked foreboding in the morning, but it was fine by the time of the party. Just before we left
Augi wrapped up Em's new soccer ball and set it on the sofa. We were all in the kitchen and Em came running in yelling,
"My birthday! My football!" We didn't get to see him open it, but he enjoyed it anyway. 6 other children came to the party. A good turn out, I think. Perfect for a little guy. I was talking to a patient at work today about feeling isolated when it is time to have a birthday party and she told me that she has seen mothers advertise for party guests on the base website to increase attendees at their child's party! Wow.
Augi has made some friends at school and hopefully we can arrange some play dates and they will come to her birthday party. (All except "Jasmine", but that is a story for later...)
Happy Birthday Em. I wuv ooo.